sunday currently vol. 15

currently:
reading: warsaw requiem by bodie and brock thoene. this is the 6th book of the zion covenant series. i have the first two books and would have loved to read it chronologically but since this series is not readily available, i'll have to make do with chance encounters. actually found danzig passage, the 5th book, but it was printed by a different company and i just have to have the series come from the same printers thus have the same type of cover as well.

writing: fanfiction. as to what show, it's a secret! haha.

listening: to electric fan and the commentators in giro d'italia showing on eurosport.

thinking: of so many things. the training, my birthday which will be in a few days, so on and so forth

smelling: nothing.

wishing: i could start flying again

wearing: Tank top and cycling shorts (here i go again with this cycling shorts!)

loving: i don't know.

wanting: potato chips bbq flavour or cheetos cheddar jalapeno! but i can't!

needing: losing weight is soooooo hard to do and yet i really, really, really need this now. i can't believe it's so hard to do that now compared to just a few years ago when just 3 months of boxing was effective in burning out those unwanted fats. aging does make losing weight much more difficult. and i'm not happy about it. grrrr

feeling: frustrated because of my slow weight loss

that's all! good night!!!

before and after

before (written 2011)

I.
looking at my recent pictures (and the mirror), a huge blow is dealt upon my psyche. i seriously need to do something with my appearance. FAST. 
1. chopping off most of my hair to a manageable length would be a good start.
2. then go to the boxing gym as much as i can. it's really disheartening to wear clothes a size or two bigger than what i used to wear, especially since my atrocious eating habits heavily contributed to my excessive weight gain. i can't wear my cute blousies anymore and have to settle for t-shirts instead. my goodness. i seem to have regressed to elementary fashion. grr. so. not. good.
3.  in line with elementary fashion, i badly need to update my wardrobe. i think the last time i shopped for clothes was... was... oh my, i've already forgotten. le pathetique. =))
4. learn to apply make up... all by myself!!! for those sundays and special occasions. and yeah, haul my butt off to some store and get myself some pressed powder already. at least i have a spanking new lip gloss again (which unfortunately i can't find at the moment.) hayy. the things a girl should do to look good. hahaha.


II. 
late last year i rediscovered--err, unearthed my borloloys (lotsa bangles and bracelets, pairs of studs, loop and and dangling earrings, and the stray necklace or two with pendants) after my nth spring cleaning of my room. then i herded all my bottles of nail polish in a small basket and put them inside the ref. that's because the temperature makes the nail polish last longer. 

and then there's the matter of color of some of my stuff. 

pink ipod mini. pink knitted headband. bottles of perfume? why, pink of course (lovely by sarah jessica parker <my  most fave scent>, sweet honesty by avon, she by j & e sozio, esprit). pink bath soap. pink shampoo and conditioner. pink shower gels (one even has the word "pink" in its name: <white cotton> & pink lily by victoria's secret which has a really, really nice, warm and fuzzy scent; the other is sweet pea by body nature). pink towel. heck, even a pink razor. and yeah, a pair of pink socks. 

HUWAAAT!

what a discovery! omigosh, i'm like, so superdupermegaultra kikay naman pala. ;p

and to think my favorite color of all time is really red. the bloodier or more cherry-ish shade, the better. i just realised i had quite a number of pink stuff while i was staring blankly at my toiletries in my beautiful, newly renovated bathroom earlier today. :)

so anyway, i guess the girly color plus all those borloloys and nail polish would qualify me now as kikay, huh?

now i'll just have to make it my personal mission to learn how to apply make-up on those certain special occasions.
and to use all the lotions, lip balms i've been given before they totally get past the expiry date.
and to use an honest-to-goodness hairdryer that doesn't overheat after just three uses.
and to have pressed powder and lip gloss at the ready all the time. (i still haven't gotten around to replacing the powder that got stolen along with my beloved camera phone last year)
and to remember to comb my hair more often.
and to let it down once in a while. (maybe when it's super short and manageable already)
and to get a nice pair of strappy sandals and/or heels.

and...

...to have my brows trimmed regularly. because. i. keep. forgetting.

gaahh! heaven help me!

i'm not so kikay after all.

boo-hoo-hoo!

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now

Yes, for many years I have let myself go in terms of putting much thought into my appearance. Jeans, shirts or blouse and sneakers are my signature look for just about everything--may it be work-related, personal or social business. I loved how my work never really required me to wear something stifling such as a business suit. I loved it so much that in fact, I even wore pajamas. (Yeah, well that's cos I worked from home once upon a time.) And I never wore any make-up. At all. Except on special occasions. I always have my face made up on special occasions by ladies who took pity on little old me cos I didn't know how to put on make-up by myself. Now how pathetic is that, huh.

Having said all these, I never really cared what people think about how I look.

Then again...

It's not too late to learn how to put on make-up.

It's not too late to learn how to be dress well without becoming my idea of being maarte.

Yes. Level up, girl.




p.s.
my hair is still a lost cause though. if anything, i would love to shave it all off. 

kababawan galore

ang saya pala mag-unli. how could i have ever thought that it's a waste of money.