sunday currently vol. 54

 Currently...

reading: jumping between political and random romance books as of late.

writing: nothing except this one.

listening: literally to the rhythm of the falling rain

thinking: of what to do this week. i have been going out for the past few weeks already and i'm already tired of spending, spending, spending. and having to deal with people all the time.

smelling: the fresh rain scent.

wishing: i would be able to spend a whole day in silence. yes that includes my mind being quiet in addition to everything that's going on around me.

wearing: furry jammies. so perfect for this cold rainy night.

loving: i'm not loving anything at the moment. there's so many things on my mind they just keep on being loud.

wanting: to spend a whole day in silence.

needing: silence, glorious silence.

feeling: blah at the moment. 

sunday currently vol. 53

Currently...

reading: pachinko

writing: nothing except this one.

listening: newest ost from the kdrama see you in my 19th life: down (juicy juicy) by jo yuri. this is by far my most fave among the released songs.

thinking: of life.

smelling: nothing.

wishing: i would win the lottery.

wearing: sleepwear and an IV splint on my right hand. need it for my strained wrist and somehow there's one in the house so yeah.

loving: the new song.

wanting: to win the lottery.

needing: money. lots of it. as in literally diving and swimming in money like scrooge mcduck hehe.

feeling: the strain in my wrist so the IV splint is a big help. i actually had PT done on my right arm last friday but since there's a little makulit in the house, had to carry him sometimes and so i guess that put a strain on my wrist further. second round of PT is this week.

Sunday Currently Vol. 52: Then and Now

I just recently realised that this ol' little corner of the www is ten years old this month. So to celebrate, I'm gonna do this with a bit of tweak. Responses for "Then" are left unedited except for the italicised font, picking up from the previous volume back in December 2020.

Currently...

Reading

Then: come sundown by nora roberts. i'm happy to be reading once more.

Now: Komi Can't Communicate manga. I've been collecting the manga since watching the anime October of last year. The 29th volume had just been released recently so that means I still have 16 more to go.

Writing

Then: this! ha. and a bit of each of the three fan fictions i've been writing since the beginning of time lol.

Now: Some write ups on Instagram. 

Listening

Then: to jj heller's music. she is one of my top five artists according to spotify, and i couldn't agree more. she is also one of my musical discoveries for this year, starting with her song "meant to be". 

Now: Top 5 on my Spotify On Repeat playlist: Nonstop by OH MY GIRL, Inevitable by Bae Suzy, Tanikala by Munimuni, one of the songs from Bai Ling Tan (Good and Evil Cdrama) OST, moonfesta by Kalafina

Thinking

Then: of how in the world will i ever get a job in my chosen field, preferably remote. (yep i lost my job no thanks to this pandemic but i'm still hopeful amidst everything else. i should be weirded out by this but nope.)

Now: About how good this weekend is, starting with meeting up with a good friend from my flying days and how hilarious it was that we originally planned to go twinning with just jeans and our Docs, and the top will be whatever we wanted... and then discovering we went twinning all the way to our black sleeveless tops! It will never be not funny. 😂 And then yesterday with another good friend from high school. Had a relaxing time at Ace Water Spa, a food adventure at Ramen Wave, and best of all, deep conversations over nachos and cocktails at Sky High Bar (I had two Cosmos btw it was so delish). It's so amazing how our conversations have evolved ever since we were 13. It's like getting to know each other on a whole new level, especially since we have just reconnected during the pandemic despite being literal neighbours too haha. 

Smelling

Then: nothing. before, this answer would not have any bearing. but being unable to smell anything now might signify one has covid... then again, i'm nowhere anything quite smelly so i guess that's still a good thing. 

Now: Still nothing. Do I really need to be near something smelly for this? 

Wishing

Then: for all this to be over. 

Now: For Australia.

Wearing

Then: pink racerback tank and blue batik pants. kinda cold tonight!
Now: Some flowy top that's already torn in places at the back and khaki shorts that are torn in places as well and missing a button. Hehehe.

Loving

Then: i dunno, maybe still the silence. metro manila has definitely gone back to the old normal (puke) whilst trying to make the most of living with covid still lurking about.

Now: See You in My 19th Life Kdrama starring my new ultra fave Korean actress Shin Hye Sun.

Wanting

Then: for all this to be over.

Now: To go back to Enchanted Kingdom and ride Space Shuttle and Twin Spin twenty more times. Lemme just say, riding those roller coasters last month especially Space Shuttle was very therapeutic. So therapeutic, I actually lost my voice the next day. 😂

Needing

Then: remote job or a job that will require me to leave this country. not saying it's safer than here, but i'd rather live in a place where it's less populated and less noisy (meron ba 'non?! lol). 

Now: To push myself to get back to arnis and cycling regularly. 

Feeling

Then: like my brain is going to explode. again and again and again and again and again. --> this was what i wrote in vol. 50. still rings true today. 

Now: Relaxed and excited for episode 4 of See You in My 19th Life which streams on Netflix in a couple of hours.

thanks to siddathornton for this awesome idea.

hey

i remember mentioning in a previous post from 2021 how everything from before 2020 felt very much like a dream.

now that everything has gone back to abnormal more or less in the country and the rest of the world, that part of my memory bank that should contain the events from 2020 up to the early part of 2022 is practically blank. it's as if my brain had been automatically putting each day in the bin but without the option of forever deleting them after thirty days. 

rather, each is dug up according to whatever it may trigger it. there is no specific trigger; anything i do on an ordinary day may just cause a memory to pop up. may it be a good or bad one, however, there was always that accompanying underlying fear of any one of us catching the virus and not surviving it. throw in a generous serving of sheer frustration and feeling of stark helplessness into that wretched mix.

guess i really should not imagine how things will be like in a global event. 

i remember reading the twilight series (to my eternal regret) and noting (an even greater regret) that edward almost died in the 1918 pandemic. 

yeah. really should put a rein on my imagination. 

the rest of 2022 thankfully had behaved itself.

now i begin to pick up all the pieces of everything that had been.